Sunflowers

Sunflowers.  I took this picture over two months ago.  So why wait till now to post this pic?  Well, to be perfectly honest, I’ve missed a lot of good pictures and posts lately.  Beautiful moments have passed me by and I’ve not captured them or shared because of being in the depths of depression and anxiety.  I’ve struggled with this for years...  but somehow I thought that I could just pray about it and deal...  what is it with Christians like me who think they don’t want to admit that they need this kind of help anyway?  I’ll be okay I told myself.  Turns out I was wrong.  Coming to that conclusion was very painful and humbling for me too.  Sometimes we just need the help of others.  Sometimes His answers to our prayers lie at least in part in the people around us.  So to all of my friends that would have been there for me had I just asked, I’m truly sorry.  And to those of you that have been there for me over the past couple of months as I have fought to get better, thank you.  That’s probably why I chose this picture of sunflowers.  Because not only are they happy, but they were given to me by someone that has been there for me too.  I’m getting help now.  I’m getting better.  I hope to be writing more again soon.  Several of my friends and family had remarked that they missed my posts and pictures.  “Why haven’t you written?  Why haven’t you worked on that book project you told me about,” they would say...  Pain is so weird.  Sometimes when you are up in the middle of it, you just don’t have answers to even the most obvious of questions.  So now I know, and now all of you that have read to this point know too.  I would covet your prayers as I embrace the truth and embark upon a journey of recovery.  I want so much to have true and lasting peace and joy.